How Technology Killed This Dancer

I’ve been reading Amy Poehler’s book, Yes Please, this week and I’m nearing the end. I’m sad about if for lots of reasons. First because I am sad when anything ends – except for my period and Presidential elections. Second, I am sad when any book that I enjoy ends. I should note that I only reach the end of books that I enjoy because I don’t bother to finish books that I am not enjoying. This summer marks the end of me spending leisure time doing $#!+ that I don’t enjoy – especially books that suck. I used to finish all books because I felt like a quitter if I didn’t. But no more. Fear Of Missing Out (FOMO) no longer applies to books for me except in the sense that continuing to read something crappy may result in me missing out on reading something extraordinary.

Time is short, people – too short to read bad books and drink bad coffee. So I don’t do either anymore and to prove it, I read to page 303 of a 513-page book a couple of weeks ago and promptly quit when I became fed up with the insipid characters and began secretly wishing they would hurl themselves off their Seattle houseboat in to a swarm of hungry piranhas. This is a dramatic change from my experience many years ago when I read a thriller that was SO VERY BAD it almost turned me off to ALL BOOKS and ALL WORDS. Only I didn’t realize it until the last 50 pages when the author pulled some deus ex machina crap for which I couldn’t even suspend my disbelief. I still read those last 50 pages, angry all the while. Fortunately, I came around on books again and decided it would be sufficient to just never read that author again. I am quite certain he would lose seconds of sleep if he knew this fact.

I’m also sad to be near the end of Yes Please because I feel like Amy Poehler and I are now friends and finishing the book is like having the friendship end. It’s like she’s moving far away to a remote island where there is no electronic communication and she can only receive snail mail when it is dropped from a prop plane as it flies overhead. I use this analogy to explain why she would not be able to respond to my letters just like she probably wouldn’t respond to my actual letters if I mailed them to whatever city she now lives in. Because she shouldn’t respond to them…that would be weird.
 

One of the many reasons I know we would be friends is that she is frightened of technology in the same way I am…in the way that I know it’s trying to destroy us. I know it’s done its part with me. I’m ruined in lots of way thanks to my “smart” phone. I can’t describe the love-hate relationship I have with that thing. It feeds all of the only-child FOMO anxiety which I have about everything except books. But the worst way that my smartphone – and technology in general – has ruined me is that it has completely stifled my willingness to dance.

Back to my BFF Amy for a moment…Do you know about Smart Girls at the Party? You should. It’s a website and series that she started with her actual friends in which they interview girls who are changing their communities (and the world) with their thoughtfulness and creativity. After the interview is over they all break into a spontaneous dance party. It is both wonderful and horrifying to me. Why it’s wonderful shouldn’t be a mystery to you (if it is, we can maybe talk about it later) but let me explain the horrifying part.

IT’S PEOPLE DANCING ON THE INTERNET.

It causes me great anxiety. It doesn’t have anything to do with their dancing, but the existence of video in which people are dancing introduces the possibility that one day my dancing might be caught on video and loaded onto the internet. Do you remember that I don’t dance well? Even to Prince’s music?

My bad dancing didn’t used to bother me. In the 80s and 90s, I went to dances and crowded onto the floor thrashing about with my friends to The Beastie Boys and Def Leppard. Even as an adult, by actual BFF and I would spend hours in her apartment choreographing dance moves to ABBA songs and then we would DO THOSE DANCES at a club in our hometown when we went home to visit. Back then, I knew how ridiculous I looked, I just didn’t care. There was no one capturing it on film and the people who were snickering had such unbelievably short attention spans that I knew they’d never remember me dealing imaginary cards or pushing an invisible grocery cart on the dance floor at the Jube in the Clarion Inn.

All of this is inconceivable to me today. I can trace the death of my public dancing days to the advent of YouTube, Vine, and all social media platforms. The mere possibility that anything like that would be captured and shared in perpetuity singlehandedly halted my dancing days. The last time I danced in front of other people was 12 years ago at my best friend’s wedding. It was that SAME choreography to that SAME ABBA music (with occasional pauses to hike up my strapless bridesmaid dress so as to avoid a Janet Jackson Superbowl moment. Camera or no camera, a sight like that remains with people for eternity.)

Of course, I do dance in front of my children to embarrass them – that doesn’t count. Every so often, usually provoked by some behavior that I wish them to stop – I will break into the Cabbage Patch, follow it up with a clumsy Running Man, and cap it all off with my very own Happy Dance. For those of you who care, my happy dance consists of me mimicking a desk pendulum with my arms and legs while smiling and making crazy eyes and my kids hate it. They hate it so much that they run out of the room screaming. It’s epic but you’ll have to take my word for it because YOU WILL NEVER SEE IT. My kids would never record it and even if they did they would never show it to anyone. All I have to do to embarrass them these days is stand near them and their friends and breathe. My Happy Dance jacks that embarrassment up by a factor of 100 and there’s no way they would be able to survive any of their friends seeing it.

But I know they love when I do it, because after they run from the room screaming, I hear them collapse onto their bed laughing. And I always end up laughing too. Because dancing exercises my soul and how sad is it that I let technology kill it? I’ve substituted it with running which is fine, but it’s not the same. I could do both.

I just don’t.

Maybe I will start implementing a daily dance party – for one – into my daily routine. It will be freestyle and atrocious and there will be no choreography. But before you starting plotting to secretly come to my house, scale the security fence, and record this spectacle through a window, you should know that I plan on dancing naked. So if you were able to record it, I’m pretty sure it would be illegal. And even if you managed to record it through a powerful zoom lens from a window 300 yards away, you would have to interact with some pretty unsavory characters to get it posted online. Naked dance videos violate Facebook’s community standards – as it should. But I’m really not worried about anyone doing that. I would imagine by now, you are more concerned with recovering from the visual image of me doing the Running Man in the nude which I have now gifted you.

And your therapist.

You’re welcome to you both.

Find a Penny, Pick It Up

Today as I was running, my eye caught a glint of something shiny on the road just ahead of me. I welcomed the opportunity to pause and catch my breath as I bent over to see what it was. It was a penny. A really beat up penny which, compounded by the humidity outside and my own poor ability to focus early in the morning, made it impossible to tell if it was heads-up or heads-down.

I picked it up, ignoring any childish superstitions I still carry about luck and the direction a penny is facing when you find it. I wouldn’t normally act so recklessly, but today I suppose I was feeling invincible. Or maybe I decided that I wanted to know more about this particular penny and the only way to do so was to throw caution to the wind and put the sucker in my hand where I could examine it up close and personal. Even as I held it inches from my face, it was difficult to identify much about it. I had to flip it back and forth several times before I found a distinguishable marking…the outline of the Lincoln Union Shield minted on pennies since 2010.

By this time, I had flipped it back and forth so many times, that I couldn’t remember on which side I had started. The 12-year-old me knew that the arrival of good or bad luck was now set in stone…that happened the minute I picked it up. Thus, the 42-year-old me curled my fist around the tiny piece of copper-plated zinc and continued on my way ready to accept whatever fate awaited me.  

   

Since I was running with a friend and we were talking, I gave only a few seconds of thought to the penny before returning to our conversation. A little while later, after my friend and I parted ways, I returned my attention to the 2.5-gram coin which was nestled in my sweaty palm. 

Many people believe that the penny shouldn’t be minted anymore. It costs the U.S. government 1.8 cents to produce each one-cent piece. Also, they are practically useless save their ability to produce exact change or their perceived ability to conjure good luck. In fact, if you Google this issue, your search will yield pages and pages of results. Campaigns to abolish the penny are a real thing. As are campaigns to keep it. The dispute is a gateway to a deep rabbit hole which is, in my personal view, every bit as useless as some claim the penny to be. As I walked the five blocks back to my house, though, I considered that found penny as a metaphor for opportunity in general.

Many of us ignore opportunities placed on our path because, like a heads-down penny, they aren’t positioned just right. Maybe they aren’t in perfect condition or, like my penny, they don’t tell us enough at first glance. Maybe there is something about where they lie – in the outstretched hands of someone we don’t like or in a place we don’t want to go – that makes them undesirable. Something about the less-than-ideal conditions convinces us to leave that opportunity lying on the path for someone else. 

In fact, we hold enormous power to direct where an opportunity takes us. Although there may be, at times, some luck involved, the role of luck is no greater than our will to overcome obstacles, our resilience in accepting outcomes, and our ability to learn lessons. We can't predict where an opportunity will take us, but we always have the power to choose how it impacts us.

Others ignore opportunities that they deem unworthy of their time. It won’t generate sufficient monetary compensation. It won’t produce recognition that is proportional to effort. Maybe it won’t do enough to cure, mitigate, alleviate, or solve whatever problem it is addressing. Perhaps we feel that some opportunities are simply beneath us. If it truly has value, we shouldn’t have to stoop that low to pick it up. No one would leave a good opportunity where dirty feet and heavy wheels might crush it. 

The fact remains that pennies are still money and all money carries some value. Even those that have been driven over and stepped on so many times that you can’t distinguish between heads and tails. If you collect enough pennies, eventually you will have a dollar or $5.00 or $100 dollars. You have to pick them up, though, if you want them to amount to anything. 

The same is true of opportunities…even those that appear insignificant on their own or too distorted and unfamiliar to be dependable. Seize each opportunity and they can be strung together to create skills, experiences, and relationships. Amass sufficient skills, experiences, and relationships and you may one-day find that you’ve crafted a career, business, or network.

Regardless, you will have definitely created a life.  

Friends, Miscreants, Reprobates...Lend Me Your Ears

Man I have some good friends in this world. People who are so good that they make me forget about the dark side of humanity. It’s probably the reason that I don’t see through scams or expect to be deceived by people – my friends have spoiled me. That, however, is a small price to pay for a lifetime of amazing, funny, supportive people who know exactly who and what I am and love me for it.

And in spite of it.

I know people who, if my husband and I are ever in a fatal car accident, will not only make sure that my kids are OK – forever – but on the way to the morgue, will stop at our house and retrieve anything that we wouldn’t want our families or the authorities to find.

Not that we have anything like that.

And if it’s not fatal, I have people who will come to the hospital and pluck my chin hairs while I’m in a coma. They will make sure that the fundraising sight we set up to cover my medical bills use only the most attractive pictures of me. No double chins. No awkward camera angles. No panoramic ass shots.

And if I kill someone, I have friends who will not help me hide the body (because I wouldn’t expect them to take responsibility for such a thing) but will help me face what I did and testify at my trial. They will know what the victim must have done to provoke me. Because they have seen me at my angriest and know that it is only coffee and running that has protected some miscreants up to this point.

And they will bring me Insomnia Cookies in prison because they will also know that in prison, I will no longer care about Wheat Belly or gut bacteria or getting fat.

But seriously, my friends are the best and they’ve been placed in my path over and over in different cities and jobs and schools and every other circumstance in which I find myself. They cry and pray and light candles when things are bad. They laugh and dance and sing with me when things are good. And they know – sometimes before me – when things are going to turn in either of those directions.

They aren’t all one religion or one race or one socioeconomic class. They aren’t all liberal or all conservative. They are just good. And if I have them…and you have them…and they have them…and they aren’t all the same, doesn’t that just make us a giant network of regular folks doing the best we can? Just taking care of our people who are taking care of their people who are taking care of other people…not perfectly, but well enough?

Let’s hold onto our people, my friends, and not let hate-spewing, single-minded, self-serving reprobates who happen to have a microphone and nice clothes jack with our networks.

That’s a job best left to Comcast and AT&T.

Just a thought.

Well Played, Dick. Well. Played.

I know it’s cliché, but little things really can make a big impact.

Last week, I was listening to my new favorite podcast...Gilbert Gottfried's interview with Dick Van Dyke. It was colossal as advertised. Beyond the enjoyment I derived from listening to the hosts completely geek out over interviewing him – at his home – I was so entertained by the great stories he shared. The guy is 90 years old -- the same age as the Empire State Building, as he pointed out -- and has spent more than 50 of those years in show business. He’s been a TV star, a movie star, a stage star. He personally knew Stan Laurel and Buster Keaton. He can sing -- in English and in a horrible cockney accent which he recognizes and embraces as the worst cinematic accent ever. He taught himself to dance when he was in his 30s and despite a diagnosis of arthritis in his 40s, he still dances every single day. A recovering alcoholic, he quit drinking cold turkey in the 1970s. A 50-year smoker (1-2 packs a day at one point), he quit smoking with the help of nicotine gum and patches. Seems like he’s cracked the longevity code – and not just enough to keep a pulse until he was 90 but enough to still be LIVING at 90. Thriving even.

And now he’s written a book called Keep Moving: And Other Tips and Truths about Aging. I was hoping that he might share some magic (free) nugget of wisdom that would help me crack the code on this aging thing that I've got going on. It’s not that I don’t want to read his book, but my “to read” list is unmanageable right now and I could really use some Cliff Notes at this stage. Toward the end, I realized he wasn't giving anything up other than instructing us to just do what we love and be happy. Just as I was about to add it to my book list, Gottfried asked him to share his most important piece of advice with listeners. I let out a single sardonic snicker at this question because really...if I wrote a book, I sure as hell wouldn’t go around telling everyone the best parts. He graciously answered with this:

“Never start going down the stairs sideways.”

I laughed again as this was clearly a humorous way of saying, "No way in hell I'm giving you the best advice from the book...go out and effing buy it." Except that it did turn out to be the best advice ever. Especially for a runner over the age of 40. After a week of forcing myself to go down the stairs forward – no matter how badly my knees and hips were aching – my hips and knees don’t hurt anymore. I can actually bound up and trot down like I did when I was a kid. It's almost as if using them is preventing me from losing them. And if that's not the best advice in the book, then I want to hear the rest of it too. So I guess it's going on the "to read" list afterall.

Well played, Dick. Well. Played. 

How Quickly They Forget

I was watching Morning Joe earlier today because…. Prince.

Per their usual format, they rotate the people at the table in and out from segment to segment all morning long. Sometimes people leave mid-segment and without anyone acknowledging the departure. This can be somewhat disturbing early in the morning when my attention drifts in and out and suddenly Mika Brzezinski is replaced with Nicole Wallace – as though any intelligent blonde with a vagina will suffice.

Ok, so maybe that particular substitution hasn’t happened before, but there is quite a bit of fluidity to the table occupants and to the discussion and this morning, almost all of the segments drifted back to the topic of Prince Rogers Nelson’s sad and untimely death. This is not surprising as he was a cultural icon and music genius and Purple Rain is the soundtrack to all things that are good in the universe.

So I was drifting in and out with them as I was reading NPR articles – also about Prince – when all of a sudden I heard a very buttoned-up voice say the following words:

“He just put sexy in music.”

When I looked up to see who had spoken this – I think the words and the voice didn’t match in my head and so I had to see what was happening – there was former Republican National Committee Chair Michael Steele’s face speaking on my screen.

It was really weird. For a moment, there was a robot voice in my head saying does not compute. Surely someone else said what I heard and then before I looked up the camera switched to Michael Steele who immediately began speaking in the same exact voice. And it’s not the first time I’ve had this reaction. I once turned on Morning Joe to see Bradley Cooper discussing foreign policy at the table. I had a similar reaction. The words and the face and the perceptions all crash together in my brain over and over again, like cars backing up and ramming each other in the grill at a demolition derby. When this happens, I have to pause the TV and talk myself back into reality.

These people – for one reason or another – have earned a seat at the grownup table and now the adults are talking.  And I have to sit at the kiddie table with my coloring book and just listen to it, if I can stop the collisions long enough to pay attention. This morning, I was successful.

And why shouldn’t they have a seat at the table? Why can’t Bradley Cooper talk about foreign policy? Why can’t Michael Steele have an opinion on Prince? Policy and culture affect us all and, regardless of their chosen vocations, they are part of the whole. These are the things that I tell myself so that I can survive the American Morning Show Experience.

Do you know what I noticed yesterday about the coverage of Prince’s death (aside that is, from its similarity to the coverage of Buckwheat being shot on Saturday Night Live in 1983)? I noticed that almost everyone had a story about how his music – or his persona -- impacted their lives. They recalled concerts or school dance/class song controversies or buying his first album and hiding it from their parents. 

I have many myself, but the first one that popped into my head was not the time I saw him in concert in 1997. It was a memory of the first jazz piece I learned when I was apprenticing in a dance company at the age of 11. The song was When Doves Cry…and they were crying because of my dancing.  I remember not being able to get the jazz walk just right and I looked ridiculous trying to do the contraction at the end. I was pulled out into the middle of the dance floor while my instructor – bless her – forcibly moved my upper body while I attempted to move my lower body. It was a spectacle –which I got to enjoy because of the full-length mirrors on all four walls of the room – and humiliating because there were college dancers in there and they did not have time for 6^th graders. And Prince was playing through the speakers the entire time.

That’s right, people…I was in a small dance company when I was a child. Now that the secret is out, let’s move on.

Everyone has a Prince story and a memory. John Heilemann, managing editor at Bloomberg, recalled seeing Prince open for the Rolling Stones in Los Angeles in 1981 wearing a black thong (Prince, not Heilemann) and doing his Prince thing. He finished only 3 songs before being removed from the stage FOR HIS OWN SAFETY. The concert promoter came on stage and cussed the audience out telling them how stupid they were and how in 3 years they would want to kick their own asses for being so small-minded and not appreciating the show.

In 1984, for a brief period of time, Prince had the number one single, album, and movie in the country. Probably with help from the same people who had thrown things at him 3 years earlier. They probably told all their friends -- who were hearing Purple Rain for the first time -- how they had been fans since way back when he opened for the Stones and gave that special music-snob-eye-roll every time someone cranked up the radio for Little Red Corvette. They would conveniently forget that they once threw a jelly shoe at Prince's head while shouting MICK MICK MICK MICK, because by 1984 Prince was a superstar. 

But my absolute favorite memory about Prince was his starring role in the formation of the Parents Music Resource Center (PMRC). You might remember the PMRC for their riveting takeover of the U.S. Senate when Tipper Gore and her Washington wives cohorts testified that the lyrics in the “Filfthy 15” were corrupting ALL OF THE YOUTH EVERYWHERE. 

And what do you think was #1 on that list? You guessed it, Darling Nikki by Prince.

Darling Nikki was VERY DIRTY in 1984. No one I knew was allowed to listen to it and everyone I knew listened to it all the time. We felt like total rebels every time we heard it on our jamboxes from a cassette tape that someone’s parents had bought them before they knew better and that they had dubbed onto a dozen other cassettes which had been dubbed onto a dozen more.

We were Napster before Napster.

Darling Nikki was not played on the radio in Winchester, Virginia, or in Jonesboro, Arkansas, (my homes in 1984) which should come as no surprise to anyone. But it also wasn’t played on DC101 – you know where Howard Stern was a DJ three years earlier. That’s how dirty Darling Nikki was.

Anyway, the PMRC testified before the senate about the moral decay of America and called for printing warnings and lyrics on album covers, forcing record stores to put albums with explicit covers under the counters, pressuring television stations not to broadcast explicit songs or videos, "reassess[ing]" the contracts of musicians who performed violently or sexually in concert, and creating a panel to set industry standards. Opponents, including odd bedfellows Frank Zappa, John Denver, and Dee Snider of Twisted Sister, called it censorship. 

Tipper Gore was labeled ultra-conservative.  PLEASE THINK ABOUT THAT STATEMENT.

Long story short…the music industry agreed to label albums that were considered explicit by the profanity/drug/violence/sex police and they did start printing lyrics inside album covers which was a boon for us all because now everyone could know what Elton John had been saying the for the least 15 years and what the real lyrics to Blinded By the Light were. 

Win-Win.

But back to Prince…

It appears that the same kids who were being ruined by Darling Nikki in the 1980s (along with Madonna and Def Leppard and every other song on the list because teenagers have and always will listen to the music their parents find offensive and dangerous) are the same ones who grew up to be actors, parents, scientists, respected business leaders, journalists, and the freaking chairman of the Republican National Committee.

And this is the case with all people who play at the edges of cultural envelope – especially those who so generously invite other artists into the fringes with them.  Talent and artistry that is considered corrosive and corrupt today may in fact be called early-21^st-century genius on a Wake Up, Mars! virtual cast which will be digitally mapped directly onto your temporal lobe in 35 years.

But please, Lord, don’t let it be Kanye. 

The Subtleties of Co-Parenting

My husband is a better person than I am.

 

This is not me fishing for compliments, I'm just stating a fact. Not an empirical fact, mind you...I can't give you metrics to prove that he is kinder, more observant, less snarky, better at listening, more intentional, less crazy. It's hard to measure those qualities. I only have anecdotal evidence. 

Like this...

My 15-year-old daughter wants to go get her learner's permit today. It involves taking a test and gathering about 800 documents to prove that she is indeed a 15-year-old human who is, in fact, our daughter and does live at our address which is in the State of Tennessee. 

We are unconvinced that she has studied adequately for the test but she insisted she is ready even after we told her that if she didn't pass, she'd have to wait 30 days to go back and try again. We also worried about the documentation. She doesn't have a school ID because they stopped using them this year. She doesn't have a passport because we haven't unleashed her on the world yet. She doesn't have anything with a photo (aside from a child identification card that we were given about 4 years ago from the school photography people) and I lost all of our social security cards the last time I was required to present it to some official entity that needed us to prove our existence. The cards are somewhere, I just can't find them.

Which is the actual definition of the word lost.

So the girl has been texting back and forth with her father and me trying to make sure that we have precisely everything that we need so that she will be guaranteed an opportunity to take the test. She has also been texting me to call the DMV and make sure that we have what we need. I am not calling the DMV. I don't have the psychological makeup to deal with that personality type. It's a powder keg. This is one of those tasks that people do and then get all excited about having "adulted". I personally don't find that anyone behaves like an adult at the DMV. The interactions are only slightly more reserved then those in a street riot...also, there is a tall counter instead of a police barrier. The level of hostility and amount of tears is the same. I'm actually considering letting my driver's license expire the next time that I can't update it by mail because I am not mellowing with age and I fear that going inside and dealing with the people will result in jail time and or sutures. 

But, we did get online and studied the full list of acceptable substantiating documents and put all of the ones we could find into a lovely folder. We are pretty confident that it creates an extremely easy-to-follow paper trail which proves we are exactly who we say we are and she is exactly who she says she is and that she is also exactly who we say she is. We also supplied the required school attendance form which has my name and driver's license. It's all there.

My husband made plans to pick her up and we thought everything was good. But then we each received a text: To my husband, she inquired if SHE (meaning ME) had called the DMV so we could be 100% sure we had everything we needed. To me, she simply said, "Have you called the DMV?"

These are our responses...

Husband: "If you are uncomfortable, we can wait 6 weeks for a replacement [social security card]. 100 percent sure? Never when it comes to government." 

Me: "Didn't call but...Sent our marriage certificate so that they could see that the person on your attendance form is married to the person whose name is on the utility bill which proves our residency. We have your birth certificate. We have an insurance policy with our names and your name on it. Included your immunization form and optional school enrollment form which has your name, our address and your social security number on it. Essentially, your father will be carrying all the documentation necessary to steal all three of our identities. Anyone with 1/8 of a brain should have no trouble connecting the dots to prove your eligibility. And you only have to have 1/10 of a brain to work at the DMV.

Notice the subtle differences in parenting styles and world-views?

His was simple. Not overtly sarcastic and mostly neutral in terms of his generosity about the people. Government as an institution may be difficult but he didn't disparage the people there. He was realistic about expectations for the day while presenting a deeper life lesson that nothing is 100 percent certain. They will likely have a meaningful conversation about life's uncertainties while waiting in line at the DMV. 

Mine...not simple. Dripping with sarcasm. Void of all generosity when it comes to the people she will encounter. Completely unrealistic because in truth this could easily not be good enough depending on what hardened, sadistic person they happen to encounter (see how I did it again? That's why I'm not the one taking her.) My words contained nothing profound about the nature of life or relationships. There was no wisdom. Not my finest moment. 

I can only hope that my husband's influence will overshadow my own in this instance. Otherwise, one day in the near future, I will no doubt hear similarly snarky words come out of her mouth in reference to someone whom she considers to be unintelligent and/or inefficient. In truth, there is a better-than-50% chance that the target of her snark will be me. 

Because...Karma. 

And daughters.

Reinterpreting the Data

OK, a few things….

First, could someone do me a solid and invent an app? This is what I need: Something I can download to my #2 Ticonderoga pencil so that when I write something on my 1975-era legal pad, it will transmit directly to my laptop. Why has no one done this yet? Seems like it should be a breeze. Let me know when you’ve got something.

Second, I discovered the origin of my negative association with Gilbert Gottfried…the one I knew I had but couldn’t locate in my extraordinarily cluttered brain. Here it is: he made a joke at the Friar’s Club Roast for Hugh Hefner that may have been poorly timed in the aftermath of September 11. So, I guess in the slow news days that followed that event (wha????) everyone needed to take time out to express their moral outrage at someone who was trying to inject some dopamine – which science says actually makes us happier and more successful – into our collective brain. I seem to recall, however, that we were specifically instructed to keep living our lives because to do otherwise would be “letting the terrorists win”. So, what part of a comedian known for telling tasteless jokes (at an event in which the whole point is to tell tasteless jokes) actually telling a tasteless joke is contrary to that instruction? Beyond that, what could piss a terrorist off more than seeing us laugh in the wake if such a horrific tragedy?

Osama Bin Ladin: They’re supposed to be wailing and gnashing their teeth and tromping on their constitution and they are LAUGHING?! Allahdammit! What do we have to do to make them abandon their principles and adopt ours?

Trusted advisor: Hey now, Osama, not all is lost. I mean, they ARE honoring a guy who treats women like property -- so that’s something. And I think we should give it some time on that whole tromping on their constitution thing…they just need to get their warrantless wiretaps in order. Patience, my friend.

I mean if we’re going to go ahead with plans to celebrate A PORNOGRAPHER (Oh, I forgot…you just read it for the articles) in the days following an event that claimed the lives of 3000+ Americans and turned the entire world on its ear, can’t Gilbert keep being Gilbert?  I guess moral outrage should certainly be reserved for a poorly-timed joke but not for the guy who has been objectifying women and using/discarding them like cellphones for the last 50 years. That’s definitely keeping our eye on the ball, people.

But you may feel differently. Whatevs.

Oh…and AFLAC fired him as their duck voice/spokesperson after he made, yet again, an untimely joke following the tsunami in Japan. And AFLAC has a huge presence in Japan. And…it’s just business.

But I didn’t come here to discuss that.

What I really want to discuss…or ponder…is this issue I have with not giving people a chance. In the past 4 months, I have reluctantly explored the ideas of some people whom I’d previously written off for one reason or another. With Brené Brown it was because someone I had given a chance and did not appreciate expressed his or her admiration for Brené and I just couldn’t imagine that she would have anything to offer me. Wrong. With Gilbert, it was just a fuzzy memory that I was not supposed to like him for some reason...couldn’t remember why…but it must be bad…which turned out to be a silly reason in my estimation. Wrong again. With Tony Robbins, it was simply the idea that he sells his books and ideas on infomercials and anyone who does that is a hack so... NO SOUP FOR YOU, Tony Robbins. But you know what? He’s a pretty smart guy…and a generous one too…and most definitely not a hack. I can’t afford him face-to-face (practically no one can), but his books are pretty good. He says things that speak to me and I wouldn’t ever have known if I hadn’t fallen asleep at the end of one podcast episode and woken up in the middle of the one featuring him. Wrong AGAIN. And now this Donny Deutsch guy who reminds me juuuuuust a little bit too much of Donald Trump…he’s got to be a loser right? Wrong. Yet. Again. He’s pretty smart too…a good mix of confidence and self-awareness…pretty funny and appreciative of high-quality people. And once again, he has things worth hearing…worth it for me, I mean.

Maybe it’s the dopamine opening up my learning center and looking at the world differently so I can squeeze all the good out?

I wonder how many strikes I get in this game. I hope it’s more than 4 because I’ve got to believe that if I can name 4 kind-of-famous people off the top of my head, there are probably at least a handful more. And what about the people that I actually know whom I’ve written off for equally silly reasons -- the sticker on their car…the quality of their voice…the timing of a question while I happened to be busy...a Facebook post -- what am I missing by not giving them a fighting chance?

I need to pay closer attention to these aversions and continue to test their validity. Maybe everyone is doing the best that they can.

Maybe.